to cry alone

To cry alone....
In my heart there is this despair.
That no matter where I turn you'll
always be there.

When I cry alone at night, your face
always says goodnight.
I scream in vain and shiver in fear.
Why can't you leave me to cry alone?

I no longer love you or care.
Why do you jog my memory, when you
know I hate you beyond despair?
The clouds now gray are fogging me in.
I no longer see the light.
I pull my knees up to my chest.
And pray with all my might.
That one day I will no longer be scared
of you in the night.

A tear drop trickles down my cheek.
I shudder with a heart of vain.
I know not why you did this to me.
But even though, you seem to cry through me.

When I cry alone at night,
I see your face smiling.
And yet to cry alone at night
my memory always seems to jog me.