A thousand tears

I could cry a thousand tears,
I could cry longer than the rain.
With all these doubts and fears,
What reason do I have to refrain?
If I could touch the stars of heaven,
Or if I could grow angelic wings,
I'd capture not one for you, but seven,
And only for you would they sing.
If I were closer I'd protect you,
But the gods deem it not so,
Yet if life were in a different view,
I'd never, ever, let you go.
Although I quake with envy and regret,
I made you a promise I can never forget.
I have not forgotten who held me,
When demons came for me in swarms.
I have not forgotten who saved me,
And held me close and warm.
But, they did leave scars behind,
To awaken my jealousy and sadness,
And although emotions have been confined,
I still feel the same old sorrow and madness
Now someone comes to take you away
Into a realm that is most certainly, not mine
Your emotions swirl and sway
I fear you have no reason to decline
I collapse onto the floor in a fit of rage
Quaking and trembling so much
She won't give up, or so I wage
Because no girl can once she's felt your touch
A part of me wants to kill her so
For having so much audacity
The anger and hate begin to grow
Because I have a lack of moral capacity
My heart is heavy, my head is sore
They begin to scream, "We can take no more!"
I cannot keep you locked away
Like some beautiful bird in a cage.
Though happiness used to around me lay,
It has been replaced with sorrow and rage.
For I am jealous, that one such as she,
Is so close enough, that she can touch you.
I scream like a hundred tortured banshees,
Because emotions can no longer be subdued.
Am I gone from the picture?