Sea of Japan

~ Sea of Japan ~

When love returned as sorrow, I sometimes still remember
To find what I have never lost but never known for sure
Why I abandoned all I called my own to build a home beside the ocean
Where every night I burned a page of memories, of childhood I don’t recall
A little girl, I had no breasts, when first I heard your silent voice forever lost at sea
A gentle wave returning through the moonlight standing still
In endless night by shadowlight, I’d walk along the sand alone
To be with you I held my dying candle, an eternal flame
Was cast into the water, falling softly from a broken vase
The ashes of a photograph, from unrecorded memories
Committed to the sea

A black dress stitched before my birth was locked behind the cellar door
The day when I was spoken for, at times I still forget
That I have seen a prince die in the eyes of his aborted princess
Waiting for the wind to tell him why, but it could never be
Death became my every dream
For I was born a widow with a candle in a boarded window
Waiting for my breath of life, returned to you again to find what’s waiting there for me
My growing breasts a barren tree of poisoned leaves and failed beauty
Silhouettes beside the sea that cast your image here in me
Faded ’til the night I burned our final page, awakened something in me strange
Coming from the once unknown

Sent from somewhere underneath, the ground began to crack and shake
The boards that hid the window smashed to fragments on the floor
The sirens scream with rising fear, but wind and waves are all I hear
And though I know of higher ground, I turn and touch the windowsill
This barrel of a loaded gun, so sad and kind and beautiful
That brings the warm tsunami wave of seven fathoms high
With peace inside I close my eyes like diamonds hidden in the dark
With open arms and swollen breasts in silhouettes of tender rest
To calm you a mother's care, to face the crash and letting fall our final ashen memories
Still frozen with the flame engulfed in water, slowly drifting by
Where fade to black unfades to white...

Wakened in an empty seabed clothed in rays of peaceful light
Through crystal prisms shining down on silken sand, my bed of rainbows
There I lay in solace now
Holding you enfolded without fear betwixt the eyes of God
This paradise upon my heart, this burden of eternity, so soft and warm between my arms
Two pillows on your bed of rainbows, carrying my own undying candle, my eternal flame
In dreams of love, was cursed to carry so much pain
The pure white tears of you and I, two children in a photograph, our new immortal memories
Were rescued from the water, rising slowly from receding tides...inscribed again
Inside of me, the image of my only son now born again, shall never die
Forevermore delivered from the sea