Show Me The Meaning Of Being

Searching for the courage,
To write these words,
I have seen the end,
I have shook deaths cold hand,
But the dark is beautiful,
It has captured my soul,
Taken my breath away,
I am just a sinner,
Stuck inbetween what's right,
And all the wrongs that haunt me,
Why am i even here,
Help me to gain an understanding,
Of what it is like to live,
Teach me that this is not how it has to be,
Give me my wings,
I will stumble and fall,
But one day i know that i will fly,
Far far away,
Take me to some place,
A place that i have never seen before,
I have been holding on for far to long,
And still with nothing to show for it,
I don't know the meaning of being,
Show me how to live again,
And surely i will flourish.