Holding Back

You said you wanted the entirety of me
I said I wanted the whole of you

I loved that beautiful kindness
A soul so warm that it cradled me to sleep
A laugh that I teased and made louder
We had such fun together

I brought your spirit to new heights of joy
I was sensitive, caring
I understood everything you said and felt

Your heart that held so much love
For not just me but others as well
Our emotions swirled with such deep passion

That passion also had a darkness to it
A jealousy sparked seeing how you stood
Never believing I was strong enough
To handle the barrage of negativity

Hiding things back and forth
Creating a division
When I let my mind to try to quell
The possessiveness I felt over you

I thought you didn’t want to see that
The ugly side of my heart
I felt for you to strongly
That made me have sensations I had never known before

Now I wonder if we would have made it through
With me a jealous ogre
Instead of a calm rational human

I said I gave everything to you
And you said you gave everything to me
But the truth is that neither of us did I believe

That doesn’t change the fact that we felt something between us
And regardless of where we ended
I know I will never forget that part of life’s journey