open wound

Just a wierd feeling when you realize,
your blocking, and killing the heart God gave you!...
until your nothing, but a pit of hollow aspirations
dreams that will never flourish
hopes that end in a definitive sorrow
followed by a lost ambition, that you released over time

How far can i ride the train of pride, until it's my stop?..
How many overhauls can this engine take, until it goes!.

As i stare at the brick wall of my life
that reflexes like a mirror
showing the error of my deist
as i listen to the voice that beats me
that rips into my soul
that combats my every motion

a blessing or a curse?.
This heart of mine
too hard to be defined

If i gave you access to the core of me
you should smile
because the gates between goes on for miles

I am a warrior everyday
the pain inside is what i slay
bloody and beaten though no one can see
the war raging inside of me

still i live until my breath will cease
just pray that i, will find my peace

still i feel this pit inside
that forces me to hide

an open life, I'm just not able
I refuse to be Cain when i see Abel

nothing will stop what i feel
no matter how many layers that get peeled

i guess it's just what has to be
until Gods eyes of fire is all i see!...