Contaminated Illusions

Ice melts down in a water glass,
As the chill takes all sleep away.

          Faded and GONE as seconds pass,
          Sill my mind is dreaming awake.

And when you fall down fast enough,                                     up.
you cannot tell whether the rain is falling down or floating  

Red pin point  D R O P S cover the ceiling
Through mirrors you can see clouds and sand.

          Blind to the sense of feeling,
          And SENSELESS to the tingle of my hand.

I still see the darkness streaming through my veins,
Screams and cries, and shouts and lies, in harmony drowning out the pain.

          Sun fades into a shadow of LIGHT
          While I walk through my mind for the second time.
           My favorite bad habit still bleeding bright,
          I am shut inside with the darkness and I am still
Blind.  

Cannot black OUT when things get this dark inside,
How do lights go OUT before you turn them on?
Darker and darker when my eyes gROW  W I D E.
                              Dimming, dimming, dimmer,     GONE.

Darkness swallows hope and chokes on sleep,
Not even my secrets are here with me.

We all know that the easiest things to brake are the hardest things to replace.

I cannot see the big picture anymore,
No black, no WHITE, just gray wide open S P A C E,
Big picture broke when it hit the floor.

          These are my contaminated ILLUSIONS.

Lost sight through an overused mind.
          Bad outcomes and even darker CONCLUSIONS.
Some thoughts were never really meant to find.