illusive

I'm in a wold 
where only I exist
I look outside
to everything I've missed

I will never know
how it feels to connect
stuck in constant pain
that I can't seem to forget

I feel so distant
it all seems like illusion 
cold and illusive
I don't feel human 

wearing this mask
playing the game
although its not real 
it eases the pain 

I am a spectator
in a strange and silent land 
gazing on a world 
i will never understand