Almost Hopeless

By BloodyMercy

I feel something here
Something full of anticipation and joy
I feel it deep within
I feel it to be something that will endure
Last through time
I feel it so strongly I will let the rest die

This feels wicked
Should I deny?
Forsaken promises that once carried weight
They now feel like a must
More like hatred

Breaking it down into pieces
I devour them whole
I want something
More.
A feeling of release
That one connection.

I would give up everything to feel this
This one thing
Everlasting
Your strength
Your love
Your kiss
I don’t want it once or twice
This isn’t a fling
The feeling is so pure it must mean something

Does it mean something to you?
The one for which I want and I wait
Is it something that will ever truly come to fruition
Or am I hopeless in damnation for eschewing the bond I guaranteed?
I am beyond lost
Lost for thoughts

What does it mean when I am willing?
Willing and ready to forsake everything?
What does it make me, when I have given up?
Destroyed and broken any and all trust?
Until I understand - I will be here
I will be here for you.

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Published on Tuesday, January 28, 2014. Filed under: "Love" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This is for her. The one I shouldn't adore - lost without her.

Comments on "Almost Hopeless"

On Saturday, February 22, 2014, PoetessDarkly (693) wrote:

Lovely write. I think I have found a new favorite poet.......sigh.....I am going to take you prisoner on my favorites list
On Saturday, February 22, 2014, BloodyMercy (64) wrote:

Only if you let me out for the full moon. Thank you very much! I am very glad you enjoyed.
A former member wrote: nice poem, I feel your need for that special one that drives your motives of Soul sacrificing aptitude to the one that will gain your heart, everything you give in True love. You will hold that motives, and your Heart will make that one, the one that's for you come. Your heart so strong will not be denied, and you say, how you know all this to be true, you don't know me. That's true I don't know you, But, I been here so many times before, and I do know that somewhere somehow your heart will find that special someone that needs you as much as you need her. Be Patient, go out alone, wait, watch, THERE..... See the one that sees you for you. It's her, see the way she looks at you with her Heart, not her Eyes. Dont be a fool, She Loves you, Ask and know for sure, you already seen her, and know her. Watch this >> THY HEART IS REAL, AND YOU FEEL THINGS THAT MOST DON'T SEE OR WONT SEE, YOUR HEART ACHES AS THE OTHER ONES HEART THAT ACHES FOR YOU. YOU KNOW THIS LOVE. FOR YOU HAVE ALREADY TASTED THIS ONE THAT SEES YOU IN A UNIQUE WAY. TRUST THAT SHE DOES LOVE YOU FOR YOU, SHE WONT CHANGE YOU. YES HER, GO AND GET YOUR LOVE, SHE WAITS FOR YOU TO ASK..... GO NOW, ASK HER TO BE YOURS, SHE WAITS ON THOSE VERY WORDS TO HER FROM YOU.
On Wednesday, January 29, 2014, BloodyMercy (64) wrote:

We will definitely see how it all plays out - the cards have been played. This was more of a reflection on where I stand. Something I have yet to show her. Maybe that is the piece I am missing...full disclosure. But my oh my... that would be exposed.
On Saturday, February 8, 2014, Lux (280) wrote:

Sometimes exposure is the only way.
On Saturday, February 8, 2014, BloodyMercy (64) wrote:

Too true... unfortunately my emotion was too strong for the moment... it didnt collapse completely, but it didnt play the way iintended. *sigh* but that's life I suppose.