I can't do this anymore

So
many
smiles.
I can't get out of this
     I'm in too deep
and I'm drowning.

I hurt myself again.
         It's been 3 months.
And I had to crack,
      both the time, and my skin.

I can't do this anymore.
I can't handle waking up in the morning
         and being so on edge
and having a skull cracking migraine.

But no one
believes me.

I am so done,
If I'm dead,
At least my mom would be with me.