When We Were

I think you never realized
how important you are to me
All this pain I am dying from
I wish you could see.
I touch the scars on your wrists
and never think a thought
Because I can understand
all the pain you have fought.
I don’t love you any less
for some of the things you do
There are things you know about me
others have never knew.
I used to lie awake
and think of you at night
And temptations I have had
I learned how to fight.
I close my eyes
to wish all my pain away
But I open them to realize
tomorrow is a new fucking day.
I cant stand myself
or look in the mirror
Because when I do it’s the person
beyond the reflection I fear.
I sit here alone at the table
to see you walk on past
It is so amazing how a friendship
can wilt away so fast.
I wish I knew what happened between me and you
because everyday I wonder
Am I completely useless
in your eyes and placed under
her? Will things ever be the same again?
When things seemed so much easier,
but I cant always hold on to those times of then
I want to tell you how I feel
and let you know I am still here, alone
And with your help and friendship
I have really grown.
But please hurry, because I don’t know
how much longer I can endure this pain
Because everyday I am slipping farther,
farther into insane.