Lying on these steps of my decending hell, where tears will not form, my heart once alive it breathed in your words now sits in frozen form, from all my strength I whisper you name, beautiful angelic lover,  bless me once again, let your kiss renew my soul,  how I long to smell your fragrant rain, to open up , to silence my pain, But you do not hear me,  this crimson red ribbon bounds my throat, so firmly tied, in darkness alone,The peeling burnt walls, display the pieces of my love within the deepest me,  the smoke dances, it plays out, a haunting  reality, so real so hot inside me deeply so deeply I can't breath, I can't speak I watch, my eyes hurt they will not shut, this is all I have I must watch, it is dark now, a stench lingers of  morbid reminders of  that anticipated dispair, your silence, it's depth is far reaching, It penetrates my being,I see a light of saphire blue, and purple, it is like you, a jewel scattered light, it does not burn,  these messengers they stand before me with scrolls they spread like my desires in dark red, I  hear my lovers song, it brings a breath my heart is pounding breaking the cold it heats my soul, this hope is divine it makes me alive, so delicately it plays ----then  I see your words so vivid and bold...I am cosmic encounter  a shootinig star through cold space and  lightyears contact with our atmostphere, the friction causing heat and briliant light a short magical moment, flashing  moonlight....   darkness it surrounds me I cannot breathe once again, there is no light, I sit in silence, now I know to love you to want you it is my loves reason to breath, I will never be the same a prisoner within, will you come as you said, I will wait forever I will wait, I must wait I cannot love another I cannot feel the same, you are my dream, such a vibrant reality, please don't leave me here in this place,I searched for so long to find you, I finally found you,  please angel I would wait till eternity to be with you if you asked, my love for you is never ending, it continues on in every path of life, as it has before, it stil remains, I  wait in the darkness,  for you.....