Forsaken

I layed the groundwork,
bit by bit
every detail  in it's place
I prayed each day for success,
maybe my focus was misplaced.

When you want something so bad,
and it's so close at hand,
All the time you've believed in it,
It can slips  through your fingers,
Like tiny grains of sand.

I sit quietly and contemplate
what did I fail to see,
I wanted so bad to be that person
I laid the foundation so perfectly.

God knows how much this meant to me,
I told him when I prayed,
Of all my plans and dreams to come,
My plans of future days.

In one instant time stood still,
As I read what I feared the most,
Why God have you forsaken me? 
Is this some god like kind of joke?

Like a game of chess
I'm stuck and can not move,
All the wind died from my sails
Is this a lesson on how to loose.

Maybe you have other plans for me
a purpose still in mind,
But i grow ever more weary lord
Trying to figger out your rime.

I'm stuck here hanging now
Tied a knot in my rope,
I'm really trying not to loose faith,
but I'm running low on hope.

The stars are in the sky tonight
I can see them through the glass
Why taunt me with there sparkling beauty
Like my dreams, there out of  grasp.

Like an absentee landlord
You sit upon your thrown,
Looking down upon your children,
floundering on their own.

If you have a big plan for us,
One thats yours to make,
Then by god just come out with it,
lead us too that promised gate.

I've never once doubted you,
Or turned and left your side,
But these are lives your playing with,
Makes me wonder why you hide.

My sins may be worst than most,
But i was told you do  forgive,
So why have you forsaken me,
Just when I decided to stay and live.

I don't care for your tests anymore,
Life lessens, screw em all,
Lets see if your really there,
To catch me when I fall.


By: Sherry T.