Who says?

Who says I have to be like them
Who says that I should care
I do not wish to be like them
That I could not bear

Wishing I could be like them
Using the words they do
Words like "chaos" and "desperation"
Feeling how they do

Do I want to be like them?
My life is just as bad
With much less horror
and frustration
yet reasons to be mad

I've been committed
Many times
For many different reasons
Many scars upon my wrists
At least 10...
For every season

Why should I want to be like them?
It wouldn't make things better
I'd be just as miserable
As I am now
Still not pulled together

Who says I shouldn't envy them?
They have different reasons
different views
Their whole life
Is one big muse

I wish I could write
the way they do
Green with envy
Black with pain
Battered, bruised..
to no ones gain

My whole life
I was called the geek
The little wannabe
The freak
The one who got beat up
But who's older brothers
Came rushing up
To save her from humiliation
Only to be too late
The one who trips
On acid slips
Then jumps off the roof
Falls to the trees
And breaks her dear little foot
Compound fracture
Double disgrace
At the ripe old age
Of 15

Says who?