i feel antiquated erased like a pencil drawing
follow the scratches 
have you ever felt put to pasture......ringed, branded and lead away

disillusion casts an ugly shadow 

need a little help dealing with fear
need a hand with this hole in here
craving an explosion that doesn't reek of bone marrow and gun powder 
they tell me walk away when im angry

there's nothing to gain from unchaining all restraint theres no future in indulgence its your mind just gone astray


pray, tell me what you do when reason has left you, i do all that i cant to carry on some semblence of normalcy...........why then, when i cry,  i cannot at least tear something in twin to bits and pieces
if i dont feel right then nothing else should be, especially if it is mine or near me


dear gods........save them if nothing works 



i hope these meds are all theyre hyped up to be

normalcy 
non-traditional medication
de-railed but a blast to the head inhaled through a gutted pen



numbness and finally some peace and quiet 
now a camo wearing zombie allegiance to the stripped nazi
how my patriotism is paid...?
the first and fifteenth of every month like clockwork so smile boys and girls smile pretty
your whore is hard at work