You break my heart and I am not the one your hearting

I do love you for now...
Please ruin me...
So It'll teach me not to love you (quoted from another poem of mine)


I asked for that in 2005
here we are today 2009
You ruined me just like I asked
And You claimed to have just made me stronger
Well So many told me so and damn I am just to stubborn
I cant take it any more I cant take you any longer
What we created words cant explain what I feel for her
She'll always be mine
I'll always be there.
You hate me but you'll never disappear on her
LIES LIES LIES
You dont tear me apart,
That beautiful blond headed blue eyed 3 yr old
Tell me what to tell to her...
She asks. When is daddy coming?
he told me next saturday but maybe he meant next saturday
All I can reply because thats all you tell me is saturday.
She thinks I am the liar I wished she forget about you...
Or get the mentality for her little age. Where it wouldnt bother her.
It tears me apart when she is disappointed because of you.
The courts dont make you keep your promises.
They dont see her waiting. yet they wont punish you for what you do.
It drives me fucking nuts. I dont hate you for our past
I hate you for her future!!!
I love my baby! She loves you!
I just wish a dead beat dad would see..
It hurts the littlest of hearts....She does and will remember.