hopeless actions

There is a diffeence in not caring and not wanting. The truth is obvious on your face. You can not hide how you feel about us. The way I feel is not a surprise and easily seen but you try to ignore it. I try to hold your hand and you push me away, I can not even recieve a hug without hesitation. I was only away from you for a short while and yet upon my return you sway the other way and act as if you don't care... or do you not?
How does a shinibi hold back his feelings for his family and loved ones. I will kill for the ones who are close to me. The other souls can BURN! Just tell me why, why you constantly deny me? I know that you feel something inside and are not completely hollow. You may not get what you want but atleast show some regard and appreciate what has been good to you!
Not all are faithful and can continue on in a relationship without some output from the one they care so much about. I thought that i was hooked on you... but the truth is... I LOVE YOU!
Demo i can not tell you for the fear that i will be putting the only thing that keeps me alive on the line for destruction. This wicked, twisted, black heart. I fear that if i do, take it out of this black walnut shell, and rip it from the ash covered organs that now smell of sulfur from constant stress and pressure that has been put on the chest. That this fragile heart will be shot down with your arrow of deception and kill this ever so confused child who searches for the lock to your heart but finds only barriers as he wanders with the key to unlock your shinning love.