after the sadness ...

and still with sadness

(Sometimes people are taken away from us before we ever got to say or do the things we wanted to. When you have that aching feeling to say or do those things you have been putting off, listen to your heart and do it. Call it regrets or just painful what ifs. Sometimes we are left with a mess in our head with nothing left to do but write.)



so much for the analyzing
its no longer necessary
and these plans now of no use

...waiting for more anger to arise...

one less season for you
one less reason for me
still thinking what could i do
what new memories could have been
and whats left unsaid remains just that
and my emotions locked away some where safe

so now
how could i possibly say goodbye
when to me, your still very much here...in my reality
your presence , the idea of you still moves me
even in your death i feel you...
completely


still waiting for that sign from above
to let me know the pain is all gone
i wanna know your finally smiling
the return to somewhere else
far from here
the sad brown eyes that once gazed in mine
and maybe the soft of your skin is no longer
your still very much in my heart
and your spirit and memory live in me



my love for you the same as it was from the start.


you know it now?





and the sadness continues.




and I.....