The Infinite Chaos Within My Mind

My mind is but a vast ocean in perpetual and turbulent motion.
Atoms within molecules.
Molecules within droplets.
Droplets within the tumbling waves.
Never Slowing.
Never Stopping.
Constantly conscious of each infinitesimally small piece.
Every individual piece accounted for, cataloged, and calculated within the grand equation of understanding.
Much like an obsessive compulsive archeologist injected with a gallon of speed and breathing pure crack.
It’s a wonder it doesn’t convulse and die from the overbearing flood of the tides that consumes it’s mass.

Thoughts, ideas, emotions, passions, and everything else left unsaid, moving in a constant state of flux.
Forever churning and bubbling.
Like a lottery machine of infinite magnitude spitting out a single ball at a time.
Lottery balls popping up one at a time yet in the form of words and phrases.
Words picked through and torn apart only to be put back together after infinite consideration and calculation.
Carefully chosen from the chaos.
Yet still imperfect.

The process seems slow…
Yet, it is unimaginably fast and without the burden of a limit to it’s speed upon the highway of light in which it cruises.

Constant uncertainty bound by nothing.
What will pop up next?
No one can know!!!

Sequences and complexities formed and organized from the foam and froth of the turbulent wake found deep within the depths of my mind.
A process complex, infinite, and unpredictable at it’s best.
Unrecognizable and unimaginable at it’s worst.

Imagine a full size hurricane trapped within a golf ball sized snow globe…
Which has just been sucked up into a tornado the size of a continent…
Which is found on a world that has just been engulfed by a black hole…
Unimaginable because it surpasses the chaos of even that, by a factor of infinity.
And that is a feeble glimpse at the raging sea of my mind at its worst.

Even in it’s clearest state it is awash with never ending broken thoughts mixing and swirling behind my eyes.
The windows to my soul…
A universe trapped in infinity within a simple dark pupil…
Infinity within infinity.
Life within life.
Chaos within chaos.
Death within death.
Everything within nothing and nothing within everything.

Lost upon the Raging seas of my mind…
Lost to the storm…
Just lost.

Lost.