Just Stop (mommy)

When my blood starts flowing faster
It pounds in my head
flooding the walls
so carefully placed

in my most vulnerable moments
your words ring in my ears
once a slut always a slut
isnt that what you said mommy?

four years old playing with my dolly
four and a half dressing in lingerie
how fast i was forced to grow up
had to take your responsibilities
didnt i mommy?

in the hours of twilight
i remember growing up
in that hell hole you called home
you listened from the hall way
how could you let him do that mommy?

you washed the bloody sheets
the tear soaked pillow cases
you knew when it stopped being painful
you knew when he had convinced me i was his baby girl
why did you let me believe it was normal mommy?

mommy is sick baby girl time to show daddy you love him

words run through my head
flashes of a past
that i fight not to relive
he taught me to show love you have to spread your legs...
is this the way it is mommy?

with each passing night
you distance yourself from blame
as i cry now as an adult
for the child that never lived
and now you wanna be my mommy?