Lacking

I feel it building inside of me
Clawing its way from my chest
My heart beats wildly as the lust tempts
I have to hold myself and restrain from spilling others

The light in my soul muffled
Dimmed by the water formed like a prison
Make the sky of night draw over the world
Never allowed to see the sun except in reflection

As I am drawn down into the blackening effect of the ocean
I feel myself slipping down more readily
Tempted to rest my worries by sinking in deeper
Running from the reality of life

Hold onto this fantasy of control
As it sinks you down below

Try to hold it in and only drawing yourself to frenzy
Watch as your body moves of its own will
Slashing about you everything you care about

Destroyed by your inability to control