standing in the dark chewing on my muzzle...

God I just feel sooo locked down right now with everything going on...
Everything is sooo complicated...

Life definately was more simple when girls had cooties...
Even more so when they had cookies!! :D
Mmmm cooooookieeees. :D
Anyways... "standing in the dark chewing on my muzzle..."
Hmmm... I guess only I know what I mean by that...
Sadly because of that feeling I am unable to describe what I mean...
It's enraging...
Frustrating...
Depressing...
Everything and nothing to say the least.
It's hell in a handbag that a purse snatcher just stole from me.
But then again...
I don't carry a purse...
So the point is moot.
I've been banging my head against the prison walls of my morals and ideals.
Integrity is the key, but shame is my jailer.
Depression my executioner...
That black hooded mongrel hiding in the deepest recesses of my mind.
always there...
Double bit axe held at the ready waiting for that final note to carry that swift and final end.
But not for me.
It's always there but I keep it at bay with great effort.
Some days it lurks close by my side begging for me to falter.
And these past few dismal days have left me in murky waters...
All the while the demon of depression has been swimming ever near.
never fear!!!
I have a mind in the form of an outboard motor!
It races at a million TPM(thoughts per minute) and churns those waters into a bloody mess.
Yet, zoomy. zoom. ZOOM!!
I'm off towards better shores.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Wish me luck!! :D