Can you look at me
Is it painful to see
What I've become
And all I've undone


I smile when you cry
Keep asking me why
You beg and you plead
Your fears amuse me


I'v made myself sick
And used every trick
The life that you see
Means nothing to me


The child that once smiled
Been dead for a while
He'll never be back
His heart turned to black


Ripe with decay
Did I hear someone pray
Save it for another day
For here I will stay


I made you insane
Brought pain and disdain
I don't plan to die
I won't even try


I live for your agony
It's become such a part of me
One day you'll destroy me
From years you have poisoned me


Didn't think that I knew
That I hadn't a clue
Realized too late
Now deal with my hate