The Love That Kills

My heart quickens
My confusion returns
My mind stumbles
As the pang of longing rips my body apart

Rips it to shreds
Leaving only deceitful hope dancing in a false breeze

Wanting so badly that which cannot be mine
So badly that which will cure my disease

This disease that gives me these dreams
That gives me these false hopes
Gives me these ever so painful memories
These desires...

No longer can I see your gorgeous eyes
For mine are full
Full of pain
Full of loneliness

Pain that streaks down my face
No longer do I hold them back
For there is no one around
No one to see…

They are all gone...

So lost am I inside

For I know not what you feel
I mean to ask but…
But I fear even the thought of losing you
Though I guess now your already gone

So what does it matter
I cared for you more then any other
I longed for you past the all my breaking points
I wished so much to be with you

Though I know not if you even look at me with those eyes
I know not if your touch is true
I know not your intentions
I know only that what I feel

What I feel when you look into my eyes
When you hold my hand
When you rest your head on my chest
When I make you laugh

And though you may never know why,
I care for you more then a friend

The worst part though,
Is I don’t know how to stop