"what once seemed real is now long dead. what once kept me going is nothing more than ghosts in my head."

how do you always manage,
to break whats already broken?
how do you burn whats alrerady ash?
how do you suffocate me when im already choking?

you all say you love me,
you all say you care,
you all make the promises,
to always be there.

how can you say you're family,
how can you call yourself kin?
how can you all love me,
yet hurt me every chance you get?

you all go blind,
when help is what i seek.
you claim deniability,
when it's obvious what i need.

how can you not know,
when you're there everyday?
how can you not see,
i live with you for christ's sake.

you all say you love me,
you all say you care,
you all call yourselves family,
and yet you're never there.

fuck you all and your empty promises,
fuck you and all your lies,
fuck you all and your false concern,
fuck you and your family ties.

family should never judge,
family doesnt turn their backs,
family doesnt hurt you,
and then give themselves a pat.

look in the mirror,
and see both faces,
look at both sides of you,
and see your many disgraces.

how do you always manage,
to break whats already broken?
how do you call yourself family,
then leave me on my own?
how can you say you love me,
as i look into your eyes of deceit?
take a look in the mirror,
and see the ghosts of my family.

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nothing burns more than losing what you only thought you had.
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