Surreal (*1

She graves like the vine through my veins
Mixes clouds under my sins, clouds of smoke

Once there was this time of sufferfixation
Hearts pumping black sorrow
One last hit, between the other millions
Here I layed me drown

The change came suddenly

Yesterday I met a girl…

She is my red
Goodbye the black

Smoldering blister inside me
shining redlight
Draw her heart on my wall
Painted with my favourite tunes

The addiction rises back
Broke these flower she gave me
Ok let’s be honest just this time
“I eat the sun again and again,
this tiny flower of yours”
She screams for redemption
And it tasted so sweet.

One last injection of hope
“Are you dead”, I whisper
My ear is touched only by
A pale deaf sound from her lips
My mouth creating a perfect horror
Then the colors start to fade

The gun points to this empy gap
she kreated in my mind
“Shoot…shoot”; the voice is right
But there is nothing worth to shoot

This time I have learned my lesson
Again the addiction-seek succeed.

I’m feeling quite alright by now, 'cause

Today I met a girl…

She is my red
Goodbye the black