As fear masturbates
to my tears,

I am fixated and dilated
for you.

Trembles

and

shakes

Irreparable poise...

...has
me in a chokehold.

Wrists raw, I follow you
willingly in this facet
of my mind.

Nervous breaths echo
and I stutter syllables
cold and bleak, resembling
your name.

Scars renew and
chalkboard scratches resurface,
painting me a picture of
what used to be...

...as I fall back into the frightening
memory of you, asphyxiation is my demise.