It needs to END

this needs to end
all the pain needs to go away
i cant take it any more
i want to die

but the world wont let me
so what do i do
i want tto leave
live a life that is new

i have been cast out
away from the rest
but it only continues.

am i that dark?
i have been casted
from those casted
i am so far out
i cannot swim back.

i wanted them to go away
so i made them leave
but when you lose your humanity
what do you become?

i am gone
i feel better now
some people would say i am insane
but for me
it is now normal

what is it
i must do
for them to take me

i want to leave
yet i want to stay
i cant make up my mind
i want to go away

but they harbor me
so i stay with them
who are the?
i dont know.

it just comes out that way
i cant take it any more
how much can one person take?
i have found my limits
and yet still i push
i have reached 100%
but i want more.

i am at the top of my game
countless people know my name
what more could i wnat
i dont know
something
anything

why do i lose it like this>
i dont know, it just happens
i want to control it
yet it is wild and untamed
i want it out
but under control.

but it wants out
and to be untamed
i cant go on like this
holding it in so ling
it builds up tooo fast

why cant things go back to how they were?
i just wanted to be a kid
why must i put up with this
i dont know
mabey i'll answer that another day.