holy shit! i just don't know what is next! the butterfly stomach topped with the anxiety-driven heartbeat of an almost broken heart...i never thought i would be back here, in this dark, cold cave again. No, I never thought that I could lose my way like this again...I just hope that I'm not lost, but perhaps the sun just has gone down for a few hours to rest its weary head. If only love were as consistent as the sun is - always on time, never tired, always bright and burning without complaint - always with a smile and always brings a certain renewal to your spirit. If only I could love like that - if only I could be loved like that on this earth. I know that God loves me like that, but I just wish that my love could love me like that. I know not what I have done. The leaves are changing quicker every year, and i feel my time is running short - my blood runs thin as each day passes and now i don't know what the hell is next. there is no medicine for this pain, no cure to try in vain - only prayer and faith to keep me sane. shit happens, but tomorrow is another day - and tomorrow the sun will rise just like it always does only to shed your shadow like a tear on the ground, but tomorrow no shadow shall be cast by me in her eyes...