For Once, I Feel Like Being Alone
By rage_angel
Push me away
I’m impossible to save
I’m swallowed whole
Thrashing and scratching
I can never break free
From life’s animosity
I only wanted to feel
I only wanted to be loved
In this world so full of people
Is there no one there
Is there no one to care
I have nothing
While they have it all
They laugh as I fall
I lay on the ground
Beaten and defeated
My face in the mud
I never want to look up again
And see their faces
So full of contempt
What have they got that I lack
Why can’t I turn it all back
To the day I lost everything
To the moment I closed my eyes
And when I opened them
It was all gone
Now I know if I look up
They will all be there
Tormenting me with their silence
Laughing at me with rage
I’m a wild animal locked in a cage
I can’t run away
There’s no where to go
So I lay on the ground
My body rigid with fear
I wish I weren’t here
Alone is better than this
In my solitude I replay all the pain
Much later in time,
It will all be the same
But when can I be alone
For the rest of my life I will have
But in this moment
They are all here
Why can’t they just disappear
And leave me alone
Comments on "For Once, I Feel Like Being Alone"
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On Wednesday, October 27, 2004, Zahgurim
(29) wrote:
Very emotional and raw. I know exactly who it feels. Best thing is to collect yourself and start a new and change the now as best you can. That's what i'm trying. Wonderful write.
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On Monday, October 25, 2004, Zhee
(529) wrote:
i really felt your emotions here.. great work!
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On Monday, October 25, 2004, IceDragoness
(193) wrote:
So many times I find that those who seem to "have it all" really are just as broken up and disfunctional as the rest of us. Besides, nothing wrong with a little alone time. ~Dawn