wont cut me loose/wont let me stray
played this ace my whole life/how can i walk away
my dawgs aint never gonna understand me/how do i explain
in my last will and testement/i pray knowledge youll gain
what do you see/u will never see peace/it will always rain
u r my loyalty/u r my life/i cry peace for u deep in the night
made my deal with the devil/high price that i paid
i knew the stakes/there was no other way
crossroads came long ago/now its just me and the devil and the road that i chose
wont be long before youre diggin my grave
always kept my dignity and self respect
u taught me strength/i showed u this in death
gave u my heart cuz no one else wanted it
been on the line many times/each time i wanted to scream/run away this life aint worth it
when i was just a baby/i laughed at violations/just thought u were mean/but now/older and wiser/i understand everything/u were teaching me/raised up by black men in a crip world white gurl in a black ghetto
i never had any female friends/u built me to be manstrong/to soldier on
but deep inside me/in cold darkness/lives a scared woman
caged dayz drove me insane/no blame/just me and my rage/no remorse/no regrets/no shame
the night C died/i begged those bullets to secretly rip into me/would have accepted them with honor/as fate/to put me out of my misery
ive walked dead ever since/my heart is beaten,shattered beyond all recognition/all repair
through my words,through death/may you begin to know/what really lives buried deep down in my soul/my love never grew cold
i give to you/my family/my respect/rollin60 crips/all thats left
through these million pages,years of pain/my weaknesses and strengths
may the traditions carry on/so now i pick up my violin and these are my songs/hear them and stay strong