So Simple

Say sweet things to me in the soft glow of the moon,
Pull me away from my sorrow, but not too quick or too soon.
We can lay near each other on the sand by the sea,
But please don?t wrap your comforting arms around me.
You can look into my dark, hideous eyes,
Just don?t tell me the truth, only speak sweet lies.
Call me no matter what time of the night,
But don?t make me feel special, because I just might.

Please just walk away, though I want you to stay,
But whatever you do or say, I will still be with you and obey.
Drag me with you wherever you wish to go,
I?ll follow willingly and never disagree or say ?no?.
You can make me laugh a little now and then,
Just don?t make me open my heart up again.
Keep it simple and don?t tell me how you feel,
I?d rather live a blissful lie and the truth be concealed.

Only one chance to utter softly what I should have always said,
If only I could have told you and then lay near the sea, lifeless and dead.
A faint ray of happiness is all I ever really wanted from you,
Even if that frivolous, little ray was not even true.
Yet I told you once and then tore myself away,
From my one and only perfect, little, beautiful fey.
Please don?t ask me to prove myself to you anymore,
I just want to cry myself asleep, all alone on the floor.

There were a hundred or more lonely nights,
In which my heart and I were constantly in fights.
Whichever road I took would have led me to despair, this I now know,
If only it had been before I had decided to disappear and go.
Regret was the only thing I could feel for days,
And when you pulled me back, my heart was in a blaze.
Yet now I realize that there is nothing beyond the morning,
Nothing can exist beyond my pain and all my mourning.

Once again, laying on the sand near the cold, black sea,
And I dare not look at you as you lie down next to me.
My eyes close tightly and I banish all my emotions away,
Then hide all of my thoughts so that they hold no sway,
Over whatever frivolous, stupid things I might say,
Maybe it was simply meant to be that way.
I wish my heart was made of tangible clay,
So I could hurl it into the ocean, so dark and gray.

You don?t even touch me, yet you make me feel so surreal tonight,
And even though I do everything perfectly, the timing is still not right.
Why does it always seem to be off and always wrong, what can I do,
All I wish is to destroy this idealistic painting I once drew.
Yet even though my life is crashing before my eyes,
Everything seems so perfect while I watch the moon rise.
If you really want to, you can hold me on this day,
Even though I realize it is not meant to stay this way.

Idealistically, this thing would be simple and beautiful for me,
But life is never that simple, would you not agree?
If my existence was more benevolent, it would end it this night,
Yet I wonder if I died happy, would you still be alright?
I only want to hold this contentment forever in my arms,
Just crystallize this moment away from fears and harms.
Do not tell me, because I already know it?s not meant to stay,
I?ll just cradle this night closely while it?s still here on display.

Even though I know nothing lies beyond this event,
I have never been so happy while wallowing in my torment.
Happiness never cost so much for me, but I don?t seem to mind,
At least one moment in my miserable life I was able to find.
This object of my eternal affection I do not even dare to touch,
Regardless of how many nights I know I?ve wanted it so very much.
The future scares me now that I remain secluded and all alone,
And I think the torture and happiness is all I will have ever known.

I can only lie here on the cold, barren floor,
Unsure of how I am supposed to feel anymore.
Even my fantasy world seems so distorted and tainted,
By this single simple picture that I have painted.
Yet it hurts so much for me to even try and say,
The things that throw my heart into fits of misery and disarray.
Please, just let me live and die within this lie,
Don?t look at me sadly or even ask why?
Just let me hold this perfect lie until I die?

If only everything in my life were so simple,
Like the way I feel about this object of my fascination.
If only it were all so simple, but the timing is always wrong.
Please hold me; even though it seems to remind me that I am living,
A beautiful, perfect dream which I can never truly have.
Life it seems is never so simple?
For if it was, it would let me always be near you?