Forever Dissever

Do you know what you are saying when you say you "love me",
Or are you just too simply blind with hope to clearly see?
That you could never sacrifice what it takes for us to be,
Would you dare renounce your right to be forever free?
It seems you never look through the glass,
And see what's going to come to pass.
If you love me, your entire world will die before your eyes,
Demons will fly quickly down from the fire blazing skies,
They will burn all of your family and friends,
Make it seem like this life is at it's end.
But what you don't see, is that they have come to take,
The beings whom are most likely to forsake,
You in the time when you will need them most,
So they are taken away and become merely ghosts.
All you will be left with is a broken heart,
Which will have been shattered and torn apart.
You shall be more alone than you have ever been,
So alienated from everyone and all of your kin.
I would be all that you will have left,
I know all too well you would be bereft.
Would you dare to sacrifice all that you hold,
Could you throw it all away so quickly and be so bold?
My demon would consume you whole,
Set you aflame while you were tied to a pole.
And he would hold me back with a tight clutch,
Even though it would hurt to see you in pain so much.
He would want to prove to me that no one would sacrifice,
That no one would pay for me the ultimate final price.
And who was I to say that he was wrong,
When I haven't felt warmth in so very long?
Would you bite your lip and keep it all in,
Stay until you the demon finally decreed you win?
Or would you fly away, back into the world of mental pain and sorrow,
Would you even regret that you flew back into the world tomorrow?
But who could possibly blame you for flying away,
I knew you wouldn't stay, regardless of what you would say.
For the demon always wins in these battles against light,
No use to struggle with him or even bother to stand and fight.
I have no reason to fight for a lost cause,
No reason to win without an applause.
Or will you be there, by my side,
Will you hold my hand and be my guide?
Would you really sacrifice, friends and all,
So that you could be with me when I fall?
I know you wouldn't, and this is why I push you away,
Regardless of how much you care or what you might say.
I could never take these things from you,
For it seems the things you have are already few.
Even if I was dying on the floor, bleeding black,
I would never ask you to dare to come back.
What would you do if it was suddenly all gone,
Would you still stay and watch the moon rise before dawn?
Or would you return to the life you once knew,
Back into the arms of your beloved crew?
Because I know my demon all too well,
He tricked my heart to grow and swell.
Then he scarred it with a burning iron stave,
And gave me "the warmth that I so craved".
I screamed with tortured agony,
And so this is how he scarred me.
I know he will trick me once again,
Sooner or later he will, I'm not sure when.
He tricks me with my blind weakness, jealousy,
Even though my intentions may be done zealously.
And I know, by my sword, everyone you love will fall,
Chopped down with my blade when they begin to crawl.
I cannot help myself from doing so,
For the Demon beckons me to go,
And slay the people in which I feel so much hate for,
Regardless of how much you might beg and implore.
The jealousy he controls will swell within my chest,
All the loathing and hate will my soul infest.
So would you so readily sacrifice all that you own,
Would you gladly be almost completely alone?
The answer to this is "no", and I know why,
Because I can't seem to stop the tears when you cry.
And if I can't do this, then I can't do anything at all,
I can't soften the crash landing when you tumble and fall.
Jealously is bred into me like a virus that controls my actions,
Insisting on pleasing the demon and giving it satisfaction.
You could never live away from everyone you love,
And watch me destroy all of them from above.
This is why I push you away,
Regardless of what you might say.
In spite of what I might feel,
You, the ultimate prize, I may not steal.
To steal you away from all that you know,
To make you runaway and with me go,
I could never ask of you something so,
So before you make a stupid decision,
I ask you, I beg you . . .
Please . . . turn around . . . never look back . . .
And go . . .