Human thoughts #1?

I havent felt human for awhile 
but what does that really mean 
does it mean that i breath and are alive 
i dont know 
but how am i suppose to feel
whos to governer how im suposse to feel 
but here i sit wondering 
if they are right that its easier this way
to blend then stand out 
to follow a line then zig 
then 
zag

but who am i to say such things