late night sentiments
By Sapphire
As stupid as this sounds, my emotions are all over the place because I
just watched a stupid series full of fucked up people. As much as people
won’t get it, man, there is always a reality in all the movies and novels.
Hurt is a very bad thing, because from the outside, not a lot of people
can actually see through all the walls and coverings. And the fact that
you had a chance at some point to avoid your tragedy and now that you know,
you can’t. breaks you even further to how you didn’t pay attention
and now the price is heavier that anything.
The feeling when you try to pull yourself together but your strings are
as frail as the attention you paid, you just keep breaking down, over and
over again. Because then now you think you just deserve to live with the
pain for the rest of eternity. Then comes the part that you have to at
least cover it up and play “you have to fake it until you make it”
but then you get so accustomed to the pain and the virtual happiness that
you forget to be genuinely happy and that becomes what you are: an empty,
lonely soul looming around the world without a purpose.
Sometimes I feel like I have moved past my past but I think it keeps up
with me that it’s like cologne so strong, you’re just associated with
it.
Comments on "late night sentiments"
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On Sunday, November 5, 2017, Sapphire
(21) wrote:
this is great advice HighlandHillbilly . and thank you, it feels good to feel like you can talk with people that understand. i for one that comes from Africa, its quite hard.
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A former member wrote:
Just me personally, I get a certain thrill when life kicks me in the teeth. I am the guy that stands back up, spits my blood back at it, and asks for more. I know pain is my lot in life, but too often I asked for it. My advice, take hold of the chains life has wrapped you in, and drag life around for a bit. Welcome to DP.