With hopeful heart, I open my eyes
And try to fend off all the lies
I tell myself when I think of you

It's not that I didn't give a damn
I just didn't see or understand
The pain I put you through

So, now I hang my head in shame
For I alone am to blame
For this sorrow in my heart

An emptiness never to be filled
And the loss of joy that I killed
When I tore your dreams apart

“I wish you pain” is all you said
How it echoes in my head
Now that sleep cannot be found

Aching for you and all alone
Wishing I could be as a stone
When the nightmares do abound

How I long to see your face
To wash away this disgrace
And tell you I loved you all along

With hopeless heart, I close my eyes
And mourn the tears I cannot cry
It's too late now, you're already gone

October 31, 2015