Wish

By LiesWithin

I wish I could feel the happiness my smile portrays
Or feel the genuine joy my laughter seems to say

I wish even on sunny days I wouldn't feel so cloudy
Or have these thoughts that scream so loudly

I wish I wouldn't think so often of dying
Or say I'm fine without lying

I wish there was someone there to talk to me
Or someone to which I could tell everything

I wish I could take everything in with positivity
Or relearn how to enjoy every little thing

I wish I didn't feel the need to harm myself
Physically or mentally, I think I need help

I wish I could change a lot of things
It's not fun being trapped inside me

I want to breathe the air like I actually feel the need to
Or tear down the disguise nobody can see through

But I'm me and I can't change a thing
And I really can turn to nobody

I'm quite okay with being alone,
Leave flowers at my grave, I dug my own

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Published on . Filed under: "Depressed" and "Poetry"

Comments on "Wish"

On Friday, January 8, 2016, BrideToAgony (13) wrote:

I'm not sure how I finished that without tears in my eyes. Truly a beautiful, horribly sad piece. Reading it was all too relatable. Thank you for writing this.
On Monday, September 7, 2015, Allen (156) wrote:

Many can relate my friend. Myself included. But in time things can change trust me. it may seem hopeless and no end in sight. but their is a light somewhere. great piece though very sad. don't give up
On Monday, September 7, 2015, 10 Forty Three (543) wrote:

I can relate to this beautiful, yet sad poem. I'm still depressed but things have gotten a lot better with time. I'm not stuck in that same dark place I was, and I know you'll find your way out of the darkness too. Write on.