This lump in my throat makes me wonder what’s next
Consumed with the fire that burns from past regret
I can’t seem to breathe, I can’t find the words
what happened in the past has left my life deferred
It is so difficult to move forward when I can’t stop looking back
And it is so easy to remember but much harder to forget
More wisdom is poured upon me, I feel at peace
That moment is strangled and left to die at my feet
 I am forced to watch any hope die slowly in the flames
By no one but my own hand; I am the only one to blame
Fear not the end, but fear the life
Living in the darkness while avoiding the light
Disappointment has marked me, I felt the pain of its blade
My blood ran the course of this tragedy we had made
And with no other options, I came home to what I knew
Only to be reminded of the horrible things I put them through
I feel the pressure so great weigh upon my broken hands
Pleading to anyone to help me understand
Why I feel so empty, why do I feel so alone
I feel so much within me that no one has ever known
And if I tell you my secrets, will you take the pain away?
If I show you my wounds, will I live to see another day?
No one has answers, they simply question your intent
As though the thought behind my actions defined my time spent
I never stopped to listen, I never stopped to see
That the sound that surrounded us meant much more to me
So when you changed your direction, I just soaked it all in
And it transformed me into this dark hearted person
So these scars we hide, they were meant to make us strong?
Wisdom attained from the very thing we kept running from
And I see the sun, it breaks what is left of my heart
In this moment I feel completely torn apart
Overcome with a sadness too great for me to voice
Failed by the ones that told us we had a choice
Reality of the situation is we either succumb or resist the tide
You either keep fighting or  you will lie down and die