I dreamt the dream again
It repeats
​Always the same
​Built on borrowed uncertainty
​An uncompromising battle 
​within me
I dream it again and again
It ​shakes the very core of me
​lingers for days within
Crawling out through my mouth
I keep seeing him

Opening the door
​To feelings
I know soon I'll descend

​I will be at the same meeting
​Again and again
years since its happening
​The intensity burning
​My insides aching
​His icy stare penetrating
​my heart

As I was leaving 
​Insides of me screaming
​Him not following
​Our last meeting the last

​During the night I used to watch him
​Constantly breathing
​The steady rise and fall of his chest
I needed this certainty
​Its the only thing I had left
​As the moon that shared all my nights
​Within a clenched fist and warm soft breath
​Reasureing me for now
​The he was alive
​The steady rise and fall of his chest

I had become a mistress
​His other lover insisted
​Seeing her talons in him
​He kept on descending 
into the unknown
​The place I could not follow
A place I wouldn't go

I fought her for years
​Then giving up my fears 
​I walked away in tears
​This brought our last meeting
​The last

I was standing
​He was staring
​The taxi waiting
My tears were spraying
​My heart near breaking
​Me needing a fresh start

This form of addiction is far from forgiving
​My love had equipped it from the start

​Now I keep dreaming 
​It
​Of the last meeting
The one that shattered my thoughts
​We were both staring
​The north wind was blowing
​The leaves along the sidewalk

​The heroin withdrawing from his blood
The scales were weighing
​Between me and her
​He has mistaken her love 
​From the start

​He is turning 
​My mind is reeling
​My hands are shaking
​He Carries on walking
​The meeting that shattered my heart