This Life

This life
please please listen
Stop placating me
Stop it
STOP IT. 

Stop talking to me like a child
LOOK AT ME
LOOK AT ME

I have blood in my eyes,
I have tears in my mouth. 

LOOK AT ME


I need you to stop 
stop stop stop
JUST STOP
PLEASE PLEASE 
just.....

just..
just  just look please stop 
stop looking away.....

Look past my tears, look at my pupils
Do you see
See him
HES HERE 
STOP TELLING ME HES NOT
HE IS.
He bothers me every fucking night

my life
my life
this life 
this life


Please fucking..
oh my god...
Please..

PLEASE


             ............STOP stop stop stop stop stop

let me scream
let me scream

THIS IS TORTURE AND YOU TELL ME TO BE CALM

NO NO NO


Stop

stop it

please please

PLEASE

stopSTOP!
STOP!

STOP
DRUGGING ME

STOP
SILENCING me

STOP putting me away 
Calling me MENTAL

Tell me who survives TORTURE holding in the SCREAMS

They have to come out

I'm shaking...please

Stop stop stop

Please 

This life

This life

Wont let us scream
Wont let us be
WONT LET US DEEM
OUR RIGHT TO SEE

The pain gets louder
and my feelings are as important
as important
as POWDER

To you they desintigrate
but not to ME
TO ME
They are here
today
today
now


This life

 oh fuck...
im shaking..
please....
please please....

This life
My life My life

is one fucking

supressed SCREAM




(any comments appreciated)