You were the worst for me,

the only thing to bring me to my knees,

I left you cause I couldn't believe

I could relinquish this lack of self control

So I moved, a thousand miles away

Put distance in all you had to say

Every text, every call

Sent straight to ignore

Cause I wasn't strong enough

I loved you way to much

That's why I moved back away from you

Cause I  couldn't be that girl, who had no control

I moved on,

in order to hurt you worse, to a friend you held close

you stayed stuck,

until I was ready to come back to you

You were gone, far away from everything we were

and now we play these jokes,

that one day we will be together again,

and I know its possible, if only I could say

Everything you wanted to hear, but I can't do that

Too pridefull, to go back to what we were,

back to everything,

I cannot bear the false promises and the games we love to play.

He was right to be worried.

You were everything I loved,

but I ran when I saw it, hid from it

 cause I can't be the girl who gives it all away.

And now, everytime we're together,

everyone can see, the passion

but I refuse to be the one who lets go of my pride,

So I'll say no. Go on pretending, you're my bestest friend,

When all along, it was always you and I stopped playing these game.

I left it all for you, but I will never confess.

It was all for you, every tear for you, every pained moment

But I will let you think it was all for him

and maybe for a moment it was,

But I left you cause I couldn't love you, I refused to let the feelings set

Cause I would only hurt you in the end,

you know my deepest secrets held within, did you think you would escape the pain,

but now I see I was also hurting myself..... Fuck even our coworkers saw what we didn't see

and they called me on my bullshit.....and saw through all yours....

But it will never be again. I wouldn't allow it...you're my bestest friend... and I won't lose it.