Never alive

 depression is pushing me so far into darkness. 
empty as the hole in my heart, the night is dead
weeping inside i play with emotion
killing sadness with hollow laughter and hiding smiles
im only living to see the end
as dry as the sunlight on my skin
my charm is darker then you might think
in my mind, i sink 
right on the brink of suicide
death to you it seems so far and misunderstood
as i understand
to me its beauty
even blackness is more appealing to me then this horrible thing
 being within me
 and each and every one of you
forget life you'll never arrive
ill never live yours cause you were never alive
NEVER