Flapping Away

I want to feel filled & elated in my heart. To remember a caress of my cheek & laughter in my head. Giggle randomly to myself about an inside joke. To walk in a glow created just for me.

To happily do things cuz I want to. Be embraced, live for awhile in a world of my making. Forget time & place. Feel that i've always felt this way. Stress, worry, frustration vague memories from my past.

To have the beginning of love. To relinquish fear of pain, throw caution out & plunge into an unknown abyss audaciously. This only earned by destruction of safety built by small hurts & pain.

Bravado ever enduring, stubbornness held fast & tight. To truly seek pleasure requires u to walk thru pain, but the pain fear traps u tight to the ground. Break invisible, self-shackled chains. Feels like u r asking me to fly by flapping my arms.