Epic failure

Within her beautiful eyes
I could drown in my desire
I bark to the darkened skies
How my passion is a burning fire

Before her I choke my words are but a whisper
While my hands tremble so cowardly
I am not myself I am a stranger
On my sleeve you can see my frailty

I despise myself in this moment
I wanted to show you my best quality
Every opportunity I fumble this is torment
I fail so much to the point of obscurity

I lost perhaps the only chance I had
Because of my awkwardness
It seems I am slowly going mad
Thinking of everything that was amiss

I would like to give this a try again
But I know that I lost my chance
I wouldn’t even know where I would begin
As I think back I wonder if I even had a chance

Am I over analyzing the events that unfolded
Was I just seeing what I wanted to see and believe
Was I clinging to something that never existed
Or was this something that I might could achieve

I don’t know if I made this up or if it was real
I am beginning to think I am still just mad
Either way these emotions deep inside I feel
I fear I was wrong and if I am right I still feel sad

Cause if I ever had a chance I already blew it
And if not ill never have a chance come my way
I am but a hopeless fool everyone knew it
I am always the last to see it anyway

Only after I climb out of the rubble do I know I fail
It is best to spell it out to a blind fool like me
I think its time I go back to hiding inside my shell
And try to put up these emotions that are tripping me

But still my heart feels somewhat empty
Everything seems to have lost its luster
I feel now more than ever so lonely
The strength to lift my head I cannot muster

If I could I would cast away this weakness
I can feel it consuming every part of me
I feel it could so easily become happiness
If I could express these feelings within me

And if you would accept them in your heart
Even if you could I would still be miserable
Cause deep inside I know we must be apart
I knew all along my failure was inevitable

But I am unable to change my fragile hearts desire
No matter how much I try I just cant let go
As I gaze into the light of the flickering fire
I will always be a fool at least that I know