I lay here wondering what happened,
How my life has become so twisted,
When my reality became so bended,
And how this all will be ended.

The warm rush of crimson,
Rushing from my very sin,
I try and move but give in,
As I close my eyes whispering fin.

I have a clear mind now,
I break a smile and vow,
The letter here will tell how,
And why I did it now.

You were the best blessing,
But you were also the reasoning,
To all the sorrow and crying,
Leading me to my cutting.

But even with the questions,
I will never get to ask for answers,
I wish you and your lovers,
The best of lives.