Tired of Being Tired

I’m tired of being frightened
Stumbling around in the dark
Trying to find someone I can hold on to
I’m tired of finding nothing
But people that are surrounded by light
But don’t seem to want to share
I’m tired of hurting and being pushed aside
By people who talk one way
And then act another
I’m tired of being that hopeless romantic
That stops to smell the roses
Only to find that some asshole
Stopped here first and shit all over them
I’m tired of being the guy
That pricks his finger getting the perfect rose
Only to find out that his lady love
Hates roses
I’m tired of writing
For people who don’t appreciate
The time and effort it takes to put my
Thoughts and feelings into words
I’m tired of her being the first thing
I think of when I wake up
And the last thing on my mind
Before I fall asleep
And occupying almost every single thought
In between
I’m tired of giving my heart to her
And getting laughed at
I’m tired of sitting around waiting
And wondering what to do next
I’m tired of being tired
And working so hard
For so little
I’m tired of:
feelinghurtinglonlinessfrustration
seeingyouinpainhungeremptiness
lovehatelifeworkcryinglaughing
pleasurepainangerhypocritesbitterness
beinglaughedatpayingforhismistakes
everything

I’m tired.