I've taken a journey of divine enlightenment, my life, as

it seems, but not my life measured in years.  It's

amazing what one can experience in a short period of

time.  This journey spans three human years but it also

spans a lifetime of love, anger, hate, pain, and states of

mind.  It is astounding how you can see the world from

two completely different views in such a short period of

life.  It makes me shiver when I think of another three

years.  But I have learned great things in this time on

earth.  I have known feeling that you spend a lifetime

searching for, as well as feelings that you hide from all

your life.  It really is too much to cope with.  All these

emotions crashed down upon me with devastating force,
but they are not supposed to come this way.  It takes

humans a long period of time to become capable of

coping with such things.  And some things aren't

suppose to be known.  I know more truth in life now

than a man thrice my age.  I have known a love that

spanned eternity and rooted itself to what used to be a

soul.  She taught me things about life that can't be

explained by words.  But she also taught me hate,

anger, and pain.  The things I gained from that walk

allowed me to see the world for the ball of dirt that it is. 
It opened my eyes to a new world; a world of pain,

hatred, anger, sorrow, and evil.   But it's not evil to me,

it's just carnal instincts.  I just listen to them.  It made

life fuller I think.  I’ve lived with the lessons I learned

those fateful years for better than a decade now and

they still ring true.  I see them in the eyes of those

around me.  I see them suffering as I once did.  I can

only hope that they will learn as I did from their pain

and become stronger in this life and the next.