broken

im tired of sadness...im tired of fear,
im sick and disgusted...i want to break free....
its been so hard latelly,to get a hold of myself,
to not act this foolish, to finally care.

so what if it matters,so what if i care..
ive been running in circles to hide form my pain..
and it wont get me somewhere,i wont earn a thing...
its time to turn back..devour my fear...

im grindin my teeth im so angry...
right now i could take on the world..
im so mad at myself that i wont care
if i cant get back to my thoughts.

im ranting im grudging so loudly...
i feel so disturbed and alone..
but maybe this is for the better...
since all i will kill is this hope....

and why is it wrong if i hate me,
its not like a hobbie u know,
im mad, motivated by hatred,
its fueling my will to go on.

i wont stop until im control.,if not i will return
to this circle to this madness..that stopped me from carrying on,
i dont wanna look behind and cry,
but look up to see u smile..like u did.

its been years of holding back my thoughts,
now im puking all this words...i cant stop them nor confront them,
i just wanna hit the wall...im a walking dead ive got no heart,
since it was broken down to pieces....and the only one who can fix it
doesnt even wanna hear bout this love......

out of balance out of patience,im alone and im so helpless..
its so sad that i dont even care of what will happen with myself...
what a way to make remembrance dont u agree??