Just Disappear

I sit in the dark with a gun in my hand.
The pain that I feel nobody would understand.

Thinking about all the mistakes that I've made.
The problems I've caused for all others who've paid.

I live each day with regretting my way.
Wishing it would have not made me stay.

What way do I go, which one would be best?
Should I feel pain and face my regrets?

I think it's better for all of you and me.
If I just disappear then nobody has to see.