Temprament

I hold my tounge,
I hold my fist,
I keep my anger from heavenly bliss,
I hold in my rage,
I stay my blade,
I hide my demons and keep them at bay,
I keep my cool,
I look away,
Instead of hurting him in brutal ways,
I heard his voice,
I saw his look,
I wanted to send him to hell real soon,
I grinded my teeth,
I walked away,
I will attack him another day,
I lose my temper,
I punch a wall,
Still my rage does not faulter,
Now i think,
As i sit alone,
He will not remove me from my throne!